Tuesday, October 7, 2008

So close, yet so far.....

This will be a luahan perasaan post. If you can't stand mushy mushy stuff, feel free to close this window.

If you've read my older blog posts, specifically from Women are from Venus category, I bet you'll know that I never, and I mean NEVER EVER had any special relationships with a girl before. I have no girl to call her "sayang", "baby", and the likes of it. It sucks to see your friends being happier than before that they have someone special, and I'm stuck being girlfriendless.

It's not that I never tried or loved anybody before , but the thing is, when I loved somebody she'll be in one of these situations:

a) single but not available.
Due to principles of life. This one, I can accept it. Who am I to force love out of somebody?


b)Already got one.

I'm not the kinda guy who likes to fuck up other's happiness for my own. It's true that they're not married yet, and even married couples crumble. But it's just not me. I'm no Casanova y'all.


c)The girl is outta my league.

Happens a lot of time. I remember vaguely that one of my Ustaz once said, the husband is supposed to tarbiyyah the wife. I'm not quite sure, but I think it sounds a bit like that. And I'm not a Holy Man. I'm just a dude trying the best he can. Besides being out leagued by her piousness, sometimes her family background also made me kinda afraid... The thing is, people talk. People judge. You can try to explain, but in the end, people still talk. They believe what they choose to believe. I used to be called a pisau cukur, juust because she's an anak datuk. WTF??

And now, I think I can add another on the list.

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A few days ago when it was still Ramadhan, I sent out a happy raya message to nearly 100 of my friends. Not bullshitting you. Cost me about Rm10 to send all those.

One of them is a friend of mine, Suharin. Below are messages I sent and replied by "him".

Me : Selamat Hari Raya.. Maaf sangat2 kalo ade wat salah ape2..Free2 dtg la JB...hehehe..


Su : Selamat hari raya jugak! Free2 datang la kedah! Erm.Ni SApE eh?


Me : Ni la Abang leman... (one of my nickname)


Su : Abang Leman? sape ni?


me : ni brother bear la sengal.


Su : Sape brother bear?


Me : serius tak lawak. ni safwan la weh..


su : Ni eira la...orang Kedah... Awak salah nombor kot..


Me : ye ke? eh sorri lar eh...Raya kot...hehehe..... XD


Su : Takpe....




Chis.... Suharin... tukar nombor without telling me.... sampai ati...

I thought it was my last message with her, until the next day, she texted me. At this point, I was kinda curious. Who was I texting? So I decided to get to know her, and I did. Turned out she's a pleasant girl. A younger girl. Sekolah Menengah type of young.

I don't care. I think she's nice. And I feel kinda good talking to her. I don't know why, but it's like taking a breath of fresh air after spending a lot of time sucking polluted city air. In short, it's like being in my kampung in Terengganu, minus the cow shits. We kept in touch via messages and I find her to be a pleasant person to talk to.

A few days later, while I was studying about chess from a book, she texted me.

Her: Hi.... Tgh wat ape tu....?Bz ker?

Me : Eh tak aih..Tgh main chess ngan member...
(Padahal main chess sorang2... time tu, I tengah bukak buku, bukak papan chess, recreate chess masters past games and analyze. kalo bgtau dia yang nih, sah2 la dia freak out)

Her : Seronok ker main tu? cam boring jer....


me : Seronok la gak kalo dua2 nerd pasal benda nih....hahaha..


her : ooo ok..... taknak ah kaco awk men chess... slalu org men chess ni nak kena konsentret.....


me : ok.. nite2..



Turned out that it was the last message ever.........


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Dammit..... I was about to score.....

Salahkah aku menjadi seorang chess nerd.................?

Adakah chess itu sejenis Instant Chick Repellant...........?

Dam~!

17 comments:

Solitary Ace said...

muahahhahahaha...

sorry for laughing safwan.. but its kinda funny(in a way)..

chess is not a chick repellant, I think..

so far, my hot galfriends seem to be hitting on guys who know at least a little about chess. because....

chess person = intelligent person

but then, maybe its just us..

=)

Anonymous said...

bear2....
knpa xgtaw ak dlu... nie gg....
silap lar ko wat cm2...
yg ko xlyan 2 knapa..???

ko patot kate yg masa dier tnya "bz x?"
ko kne jwb, "tgah men chess, tp xbz pon... awk tgah bwat aper?"

just a sggestion lar ...
xnk caya sudah....
hehehe...

Ms. Sleepyhead said...

after this u should message her la~
hahaha..
chick repellant..
ngegege..

(aku tak suke men chess~tp klu ade mamat yg aku nak tackle men chess..aku rase..beliau sgt poyo!..ahahahha)

pseudone said...
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Azie Nazri said...

HAHAHAHAH!

lawak..lawak..

enchek safwan,
if its the chess thing that seems to bother her, then dont bother thinking bout her anymore.
you deserve better. :)

but somehow, i dont think its because of that. i think she's just too busy because its after raya and she has tons of assignments to do. boleh jadi kan? kan? kan?
maybe bila dia free nanti, dia msg la tuu.

dont feel bad about having the passion of a nerdy thing such as chess.

havent you heard?
nerds are in now. ;p

Indescentdecendant said...

gle cool ....
klu ko truskan texting her mlm tu
ntah2 ko dah 'plural' skarang
aaah...
lpas ni nk saje2 silap msg org lah

sepoi-sepoi bayu said...

hahahahaha...
yo brother bear...
aku ngan su tergelak jek bace ko nyer blog nih...
hahahahaha!!!

bagus2...

safwan said...

to fiqah:

please, please please with two cherries on top type of pleaassee introduce me to them....hehehe...

to gg:

saloh lar...tgh blur kot time tu...tapi mmg hari2 pon aku blur.....hahaha

to az:

nnt ah aku try msg dia blk...huhu

isk...kasihanlah kepada player2 chess yang menjadi mangsa prejudis dan stereotype masyarakat..

safwan said...

to pseudone:

n sometimes they're cute too...hehehe...

to azie:

hm...maybe...kalo dah jodoh tak ke mane kot....

nerds are in now? serious? Take that shia lebouf n jesse mccartney! mwahaha...

to jeng:

Teruskan usaha murni anda saudara jeng. aku dah 3 kali dah wat camtuh. yang ni jer yang nyaris tersangkut.

to chip firdaus:

hahaha....kem salam kat dia..

qieynah said...

hahahahah, sorry for laughing...but memang kelakar...

keep it up...xde jodoh kot....


skali lagi...hahahahaha

nashrah said...

safwan, it doesnt have to be that one time je. msg la dier lg. u tunggu dier wat d first move ke? ish ish guys nowadays. hahaha.

btw a chess person is far from being a chick repellent. i am one of d many girls to find intelligence a, what's d word, turn on. :D

dont worry abt d girl. there are many more out there, trust me ;)

aina said...

hahhahahahhahahhahahahhahahahha!
why dnt u plak mk the move?but mk it casual like 'im bored whatcha doin?'then u guys can go on and on;)


ooh and use ur sense of humour,grls like that!heehehehheee

safwan said...

to nashrah

hmm....a guy's ego kot....taknak la nmpk cam desperate...huhu... i need an ego check....

to aina:

will do! huhuhu...

Solitary Ace said...

WOW!!

gile banyak response and TIPS..

take the tips given by the girls because it takes another woman to understand a woman..

if you understand what I mean..

I have to agree with nashrah and azie : intelligence rocks.

There is nothing more attractive than knowing men who speak their mind, as complicated as it may be, (NOT ego or their raging testosterone) but know how to respect and treat a woman as well..

muahahahhahaaa....

Pih said...

CHIXTICIDE!!!

Kekda said...

My bro is a chick magnet...in a bad way(same polarity)

Anonymous said...

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