Tuesday, April 29, 2008

dude, that's disgusting...

I was on the verge of puking after this incident happened.

It wasn't a night that you would call a silent, peaceful night, coz it's not. A typical night in section 18 in Shah Alam around 8 till 11 is what you would call hectic. Shops burst to life like mushrooms after a heavy rain, atm banks keep vomitting money out and restaurant waiters have half their mind to commit suicide.

After having my dinner, (a very delicious one) I felt my feet 100 kilos heavier. So I planned to take a bus. Somehow, I got a bad feeling about it.

I've always hated Rapid KL bus T529. It shows up when you least need them. I had been waiting for that effing bus for almost half an hour. Boredom built so I decided to put on my mp3 player.

It was after two songs that I felt my stomach rumbled. And then, it happened too fast that I nearly didn't realize what happened. "Siiii.......BOOOOOOOOT!!!!!"


I looked around to see all people waiting for the bus staring at me. SHIT. I need a cover!FAST!!

So I took out my cellphone, and pretended to answer a call. I pretended talking to my mum for almost 30 seconds, then I hung up.

Suddenly, one dude approached me and said, "DUDE..!!! Your ringtone's so wicked!!! It sounded SO REAL!!! Can send it to me arr...???"

I said my cellphone's bluetooth was not working...

So I took off and walked home...

I gotta say...Either my cover was damn good, or he's just plain stupid...

Monday, April 21, 2008

how i hate exams.

I hate exams. Who doesn't?

You read about something, you memorize it, then regurgitate them all on a piece of paper, knowing full well that there's a fat good chance that only a few of them will be used in real life.

Fuck exams.

What's the purpose of exams anyway? To test how much have you known about something? From what I can see, only a handful of the students actually KNOW about something. Most of them, they'd just MEMORIZE it.

If you ask me, exam is not the way to evaluate a student. It doesn't take into account of the students morale and attitude. If you look up our philosophy of education, it's all about producing balanced students in terms of physical, intellectual, spiritual and emotion. And we're testing the in terms of exams? From what I can see, exams only test the students in terms of intellectual aspect, not the others.

I hate exams. I don't know why but I hate them. Well, maybe it's because I have a paper tomorrow and haven't been reading shit... Hahaha.....

I'm so dead...

Saturday, April 19, 2008

the unspoken side of me


Thank you to Allah who still gives me permission to write again.

Last night, my friends and I went out to watch a movie entitled “definitely, maybe”. It’s about a guy telling his daughter a story about who is her mother and subsequently about his past love life.

The movie was good, and it had one message that left me thinking hard.

Old wounds heal over time”

My friends, I have been wounded by others, yet for some of it, I still hold the grudge. Some of it I’ve held for almost 3 years. I have also wounded others, and their anger towards me is very much like the thing that made them mad had just happened yesterday, I’m sure.

If old wounds heal over time, how come people I have wounded still refuse to accept my apologies? I have been asking her for almost two years now, and she still refuses to answer my call. Shouldn’t time have worked its magic by now? If old wounds heal over time, how come I still feel the pain she gave me?

It’s been almost two years dammit!

I miss her… I miss the way she laughs… I miss the way she smiles… I miss the way she’d say “poyo ah ko!”… I miss everything about her…



the inspiration that i got for this poem is outta nowhere... yesterday i couldn't sleep until it was like 2 am, and suddenly these sentences just popped into my head.....it's not about me, or anyone whether dead or alive...any resemblance is purely coincidental...hehehehe....

So stupid of me to have loved you,
so stupid of me to miss you
so stupid of me to always call you up,
that's why now I'm giving up.

You don't love me as I love you,
you don't miss me as i miss you.
You don't give a damn after all that I did to you,
now i won't give a fuck what's coming to you


I hate hearing your name,
I hate the way you played me like a game
I hate everything about you,
I hate you.. I swear to God I hate you...

I'm happy now that you're out of my life,
I'm happy now I got on with my life
I was happy that you were here,
but I sure am happier now that you are gone....

tell me what you think eh......????

the legendary mak cik cleaner


Dear readers, before writing this post, I thought long and hard before deciding it to be published or not. It's because I don't wanna be seen as a sore looser and I thought if I tell anybody of this event, it'd make me look weak. But now i decided to publish it anyway.... Just so you know what had happened.

This event happened in a bus terminal.

The journey home from Terengganu to Johor was dead tiring and boring. I think even a dead person would die twice of the boredom alone..hehe..So I arrived in Johor around 6 am, and the tok bilal was just coughing before shouting the subuh azan...

So I decided to perform subuh prayer first, then go home. But where is the surau? better ask the makcik cleaner..she seems friendly....

"errrr....makcik, surau kat mane eh?"

"ko buta ke? cari la! Kerajaan bagi duit banyak2 wat signbord ni gune la wat bace!"

Apparently, she's not....WATAFAK? U must be trippin makcik. U don't know me and u dare giving me attitude???

"Eh makcik! aku tanye ko baik2 kan? jawab la baik2 bodoh! Cikgu tak ajar ke? BODOH!!!!"

Then i went looking for the surau alone. Once I found it, I took off my shoes and went inside the MEN'S SURAU. I was hoping that my encounter with that stupid makcik is over.

I was wrong again. The surau door slammed open and there was the same stupid makcik cleaner that gave me the attitude, shouting at me. Even the sleeping dudes inside woke up to watch the drama...

"Ko tau tak, Adab tanye orang bagi salam, cakap 'Assalamualaikum kakak, surau kat mane? Bukannye 'wei surau kat mane?'!

watafak? u look like 1 day short of 100 years old n u expect me to cal u kakak???!! I know for a fact that i didn't call her "wei!"! She must be going deaf.....I was stunned of that makcik's stupidity. i know she's stupid but THAT stupid??

"Cakap orang tak belajar la! adab ckp ngan orang tua pon tak reti! Bodoh!" she added.

"Makcik, makcik dah fitnah saya ni makcik. sy tak panggil makcik wei. Makcik sedar tak makcik skang ni makcik kat surau?"

Then that makcik looked at me gingerly, and stormed out of the surau. I looked at her for a second later, to realize that she was telling other passer by's her twisted version of the story to make her look innocent when she's not..

Throughout the encounter, she constantly preached about "Respect to the elders".
Eh makcik, if u want us, the youngsters to respect u, earn it! If all people of our older generations think and act like this makcik, then none of them deserve my respect.




i'm safwan.....

from terengganu but currently live in johor...

studying in uitm shah alam...

doing tesl...

hope you enjoy my posts...