Monday, November 3, 2008

The days

I dread Doomsday. But there's also one day that I've been dreading ever since I hit puberty.

That day is today, November 3, 2008.

Coz this is the day that I will turn 20.

I DON'T WANNA GROW UP! NOOOO!!!

I refuse to be twenty! I wanna be TWENTEEN instead!

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You see, when you turn 20, there are things that people expect from you.

They expect you to be much wiser.

They expect you to be more matured.

They expect you to be able to think for yourself, and judge right and wrong for yourself.

All because the number one in front of your age is replaced by number two.

The thing is, I'm not.

I'm not what you'd call wise and matured. Half, if not all, of what I say everyday is actually a load of bull. I can't think for myself. I can't even make my own decision. I take up TESL coz of eeny meeny myne moe. Every time me and my friends go out, I'd just let them pick out the place we should hangout. My decision making is that hopeless.

And my judgment skills aren't any better. I did loads of stupid things I wish my mom wouldn't know. Hopefully she doesn't know. One thing's for sure, I'm not gay.

I just can't picture myself being a wise old dude saying wise things.

Ok, I'm digressing now.

Where was I?

Right. When we grow up, things also get tougher (duh!). It's been a long time our homework' difficulty is something like 2+2=___?

It's been a long time that I would raise my hand and jump up enthusiastically in classes so that teachers notice me when she asked questions.

It's been a long time since I bombarded my dad with questions like

"Ayah, ayah! Kalau Singa tu Raja hutan, harimau tu ape? Permaisuri hutan eh?"

"Ayah, ayah! Itu burung ape? Burung tu makan ape? Tak sakit ke dia makan benda tu?"

"Ayah, ayah! Tengok ni Wang lukis ape kat tadika! Wang lukis muka ayah!"

"Ayah, ayah! Tengok! Wang tuyih (tulis) mende kat kerusi kete tu!"


And he was always patient with me when I did those things. Now I know how annoying it would be.

It has been a long time since I did those things. I miss those days.

But the thing is, once you grow up, you can never regress back. It's the law of nature.

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I guess I'll just have to adapt myself with those changes. That's what I supposed to do, isn't it? Coz no matter what I do, things will always get tougher by the second.

Even when I call myself a twenteen years old.

11 comments:

Wawatul Adawiyah said...

Chill! I'm 23, but NEVER fails to look 13!


13 going on 23?

It ain't in-denial. It's called...IRREVERENCE. (:

Azie Nazri said...

eh!!

i didnt know it was ur besday!
alaaa sory safwan.

next time i meet u at the fac(which i think is only gonna be wen we sit for psycho), i'll wish u!
:p

n hey, age is just a number.
:D

only if that is true.
sorry for not giving u hopes there buddy.
age is nothing but a number.

but one thing's for sure, u never have to stop being ur dad's annoying little boy. :p

hope u had a great birthday!

irma iby said...

hey!
hepi besday yg ke 20-belas. :)
moga panjang umur dimurahkan rzki.
ala,normal la tu org expected bnda2 lbh baik dlm hdp kita kan.
hijrah.
im 20 n my adik 14. dia lbh matured.
dia lbh pndai bergaya n make up alls.
nasib sy lbh pndai je. hahahaha.
then u pun ok je klu sedikit childish. more cute kan?


btw,wishing u very best of luck utk exam.
saya sudah pulang ke rumah pun!
penat bergelumang dgn 7 sub. upm syok sbb gap skit je.

irma iby said...

hey!
hepi besday yg ke 20-belas. :)
moga panjang umur dimurahkan rzki.
ala,normal la tu org expected bnda2 lbh baik dlm hdp kita kan.
hijrah.
im 20 n my adik 14. dia lbh matured.
dia lbh pndai bergaya n make up alls.
nasib sy lbh pndai je. hahahaha.
then u pun ok je klu sedikit childish. more cute kan?


btw,wishing u very best of luck utk exam.
saya sudah pulang ke rumah pun!
penat bergelumang dgn 7 sub. upm syok sbb gap skit je.

Nasratul Naim-- said...

happy blated birthday--

Diyana said...

Happy belated birthday dude ^_^ !

You know what, I have no idea that you're younger than me. I always thought that you're older than me. Hahaha!!!!

Okay okay. Please refrain from killing me. I'm just joking.

I know how that feels. Don't worry. It happens. Take your time growing up. Kematangan bak kata my pet bro, tak boleh dipaksa.

You can't really rush maturity and growing up.

But I do wish we can rush in graduating.

safwan said...

to wawa:

I really shold be taking up life lessons with u....seriously.... huhu

to azie:

thx azie!huhu.. I had a modest one..huhu...

as a matter of fact, I never stopped being my dad's annoying son. It's just that the sentences are different.

"Ayah, ayah! duit wang dah abes. bank in bole?"

"Ayah, ayah! Keta rosak ______ (fill in the blank). Bank in eh?"

to irma:

Thx irma! good luck exam jugak! gap sikit sangat scary..takut tak cukup baca...

to naim:

Thx naim! kem salam kat maie....

to diyana:

thx diyana....sounds like ur pet bro's more wiser than u...hahahaha..joke2....

I wish I could rush being a full fledged professor....

Diyana said...

Of course lah dude! He's 26.

Diyana said...

Of course lah dude! He's 26.

safwan said...

oops! sry..! dunno that....

slip of tongue...

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